I totally forget about the days, weeks and months had passed by. The last thing i remebered was haning out with my friends at our space playing card games which i forget what was it but it was funny. Damnz i miss my friends and those time spend in school.

Then there was the final,like our really final exam and woof!-we go off straight to our attachment for 6weeks in which i fasted as it was the fasting month and then hari raye and then now. During that fasting period, not only i worried about work but my dad. Well, for those who know, knows. BUt gd thing, the 6weeks attachment ended very fast-what i feel lah huh.

Well, now holidays gona be over and back to school for in house project (stupid) for 2 weeks and PRCP starts!! Wish me all the best!

Toodles.

Disease and low immune started to kick in. Or is it maybe due to exams? Attachments? MIssing someone? Having trouble? Or all.

I started to have sorethroat on 11 August. Then went back to KL on 14th and that’s where my fever comes in. It reached its peak on mon, 17t night where i throw up thrice while studying for nurm. So exam ended on 24th which somehow i started to have cough. N it continue until now. Cough was pretty bad, keep having gag reflux and vomiitting gastric juices until on 31th morning after sahur that i throw out all my food leaving my stomach empty the whole day.

Cannot tahan anymor le. NOw, im having toothache due to my growing wisdom tooth. Pain!

Attachment has been a week. Well, ntg much to do but many things to learn. Its a specialised ward, orthopedic and hand surgery. Taking case next week. Wish me luck! Haha.

Has been nearly 2 wks not seeing him, not hearin ghis voice. I forget how he look like and everytime i have to look at his picture in my phone just to remember. Haiz…Having army bf is hard especially time like this in fasting mth n me who have parents that dont allow me to go out. What should i do? I want to go with him, buke puasa with him or will be nice if we can terawih together. Hmm… sometimes seeing him is enough but at times i myself want more, more time spend with him. He sacrifice so much for me but me? I didnt do much as a gf. Maybe im not ready yet to take the role and have the responsibilty as a gf.  My hands are tied.

Why? Because someone has to ruin the plan and in the end we were back to square 1. I wil entirely put 101% on HIM! Yes. Enough of your sweet talk and how dare you hurt my best friend? You have no damn right to say those hash things. And when ur gf called u, pandai, nak act baik. Fuck off. Cold shoulder anyone?  Don’t blame me if i get sour with ur gf. Argh!

August…hah. Had a misunderstanding with my mum, wait, its my mum who misunderstand me! She ASSUMED that i was throwing tantrums at her but i was actually directing to my annoying and irritating sister (i love u still sis). Argh! then she kick up a fuss and said smtg that i choose friends over family. What the heck ah.

But happy side, i get to spent my national day this year with my love.
On sad side, i wasted money in renting a MPV and the present. suck.

Yes, that’s ryt! it’s JULY!!!

First first, i have to say im damn glad with my common test results especially my CT module. I really thought im gonna get a C or D. Next was my NAFPA. Yes..that mini test of your fitness level. Argh! i managed to get gold- barely scraping through. My target was getting all C. Haha. MY 2.4km? well, i walk the 5th and half of the 6th round and yet managed to get 15min. Unbelieveable? Believe it cause sprint the first two and stride the 3rd and 4th until my stitch starts kicking in very painful.

Finally, hmm…hehe.  i PASSED MY DRIVING!!! Yessa!! I did hit a kerb and my blind spot till not good yet. And i drove my brother’s car, an auto car, the next day. It feel so awesome! But im not in the rush. This friday im gonna drive to KL! Wee! Future ahead: WATCHING MANCHESTER UNITED IN KL!

Despite all this happiness, there was one thing that make sad but was quite happy for him. Dear finally went into NS at tekong. Couldnt believe the day will come. But im happy he’s in. I can see him transform froma boy to a man. Yea. Im just glad i have a army bf, this will be a challenging relationship. A msg a day from him was enough for me but what was best was dear called me today. His voice make me smile. :)) I miss him.

Future ahead: Project Nutz and class outing and dear booking out from camp on 24th JULY, Friday.

May…nothing really happen. Just feel with so much sadness, angered and all the negative feelings.

Nothing was happy for me.  Has never been easy for me since my parents move to KL.. People have asked me how can i live with it. Well, i can’t. I just have to be strong for them and put up mask so that they can continue without me disrupting them. I can’t wait for 13 june to come, to go back KL and spend time with my mum alone.

Not only this problem but having other problems too. Maybe im in the brink to jumping into the category of depression. Haha.

But hey, must think positive right.

These two months are super packed! Thrilling i must say.

So in March, the whole month spent on attachment. 2 weeks at KKH n 2 weeks at IMH. I love IMH posting. Slack but fun. The best part of March is of cause my birthday! Thanks to all you made it happen. Especially to my family. Sanawi family rocks ( esp the 3rd generation).

In April.. INDIA!!! I expected worst there but woah, its not. Its just like Malaysia. But very very HOT!! The best memories sure are the times that i played soccer with the guys locals. He’s cute!! you know i know who.. heee..

There’s another thing happen in April. It’s love 20th birthday and our 2nd anniversary. :DD i’m terribly sorry for not being able to be there for these two special days and worst, not in homeland. I miss you love. And i always will love you. And love, you dont need handsome suit coz you’re already handsome.
ANd ohh…SCHOOL STARTS! And ya…FOC 2009!!

Beginning of year 3……………..

adalah bulan yang paling amat menyedihkan.

Ok. Cut the crap! So.. what is this? Monthly updates??

I hate myself. I fell so stupid and dumb and idiot and whatever. PAS?! Argh! 28 marks..POOF! bye bye. cock eye. That’s what specs are for, to wear, not to put on the table. MENYESAL. REGRET. Piss at myself. Won’t be surprise if i get a C. shatz…my gpa will drop.

Driving have been..what can i say. Fun? Yeah. My TP date is out. On 7 May. May must be my lucky man. Haha. Macam boleh predict gitu. Oh well, hope for the best and practice makes perfect.

Life hasn’t been going much better. Oh ya, my relationship is known by my parents, sis or and bro. Don’t know if that’s a good or bad thing. Hope they bless me and him. Hah.

March is coming and yea, celebrate starting of march with attachment. Hope this year on 22 won’t be as bleak as last year. My heart almost drowned and crashed. Sigh..Family is still the best. What can i say, they always save you in your darkest times. Thanks.

Can’t wait till April.

ready for a long JANUARY post??

1st week:
School reopens. Chaotic with open house and personal problem.

2nd week:
Was a suspect to something stupid. Oh ya 2009 starts crazy for me and many new things happen.

3rd week:
Projects, assisgnment and presentations started to pour in.

4th week:
Still doing presentations. Study mode starting. Bonding camp

Dates i can’t forget in january…

5th: A messy relationship problem
12th: My first cry, yell, shout and scream at him. And my first cry on his shoulder. Hee..thanks dude. n sorry for throwings my anger at you.
16th: Done with BCLS! ROS birthday surprise turn out to be not so surprise because of fang yann. But still was awesome.
19th: The romantic night walk i ever had. 21th: Pass my ftt. PDL in hand.
23rd: Shopping with bing n rul. and we saw yong siang “twin bro”. That guys really looks like him-100% exactly.
24th: Finally me and him went to esplande. N went to vivo to surprise azuu, belated birthday.
28th: Last minute presentation, NS4. VIDEO presenation. All done on that day itself within 4 hours, plus editing and powerpoint n practice. And our practice starts only when we entered the classroom.

January starts sucky but end happy.
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My december is really filled up!

The first week, which is 4th dec to 7th dec,  i had standard chartered race expo and medic. The race expo lasted still saturday, from 9.30am to 9pm.

The first day met up with beloved (pity him) after his nite shift and went to EXPO. Yes, the place is at expo. Imagine from cck to expo. We stayed till the thing ends, he was so tired n sick. The next day we came at 4pm as he needs to do friday prayers and had lunch before we make a move.

Well, the third day… we didn’t go. Haha! We went to chinese/japanese garden after having breakfast at the coffeeshop near beloved house. It was a lovely walk. The turtles are soOoo cute!! like you ah yazid. hehe.

So i had to go home and rest coz need to go school at 9pm for my medic at standard chartered. Lasted till the next day at 12.30pm. Then off to fetch beloved from sgh and go back home together.

Second week, holiday!! Went to genting for a day, its freaking cold cause it rained, which is wonderful! Then 4 days spent at KL. What i did? SHOPPING!!! Spent total of RM170! = S$71

THird and fourth week,  attachment at O&G! So far, it’s had been great. 2 delivery seen, ectopic pregnancy, abortion and taken care of babIES. they are so adorable and the skin is so super smooth…. After attachment, next day need to go school back for BCLS…after BClS, class outing at ms meera house!!!!!

will update if anything happen  aite.

Oh beloved, escpae theme park?

Major break over here!

So how long have i been away huh?

Semester 2 have been quite hectic with all the projects and presentations coming one by one. But phew! We made it! Then came COMMON TEST. yes..dreadful. So rushing. And yea, haven’t been running lately. My fats are really showing nowadays.

Last friday when to sentosa with beloved. The sunset was so beautiful especially viewing it in the sea. It might not be romantic but i love the moment. After cleaning up and stuff, we headed to skyride (beloved is afraid of heights). Was awesome! The night is just splendid with the nice cooling wind. Beloved, i love you! Muacks!! Then as promised, we took the luge. AHhh!!! was exciting and thrilling even though i had ride it for many times but with beloved, its a different story. We raced each other down the slopes as fast as we can go, ramped to each other and laugh that evil laugh, MuahAAHa!! Guess who wins? ME!

We headed to vivo and take pictures with the christmas tree and because of me, we had to cut short and rush back home.

This was the most enjoying, memorable, fun, exciting, thrilling and the best of the best days i had with beloved.

Thanks dearest for everything despite that you had just finished work. Take care k!